I stumbled upon this question when i wanted to find a topic to casually write about & it really played about with my mind. I even googled to try & find forums or perhaps written articles about it but to no avail. Does it happen when you spend so much time with someone & slowly have their presence grow onto you? Or could it be the things you find out about them that pleases you immensely, thus having you feel a heavy attraction towards them, causing them to feel important to you(?) Then again, maybe it’s just the things you go through with them, tough & easy. It could be all of the above, but i guess it just truly depends on how one chooses to see it. Some take ages to feel that way about another, but there are others who could take up to just a day to have that feeling arise within them.

I’ve just recently aimed for a future choice that one would consider, big. i intend to study land economy at cambridge & when i posted it on twitter, i started getting all these responses on the said tweet about how improbable or too big of a dream it is….

that sort of brought my spirits down for awhile, mainly because i took in all the negativity from a perspective where no one believes i can achieve it. but i understand where they’re coming from, because we’ve all been left on the impression that everyone has dreams but multitudes, hordes end up diverging. & also because most of those that responded knew of my record in my previous school, so it led them to think that maybe i’m not serious about it.

but then again, this certainly isn’t a dream that’s impossible. thus with efforts & determination, i’ll prove these people wrong of my capabilities & i’ll make myself proud no matter the outcome

the amount of times i’ve drastically rearranged the interiors in my room is ridiculous! now, my humble chamber isn’t the size of an average master bedroom but it’s a size in where the ambience of cosy fits in perfectly & i embrace that. i’m quite a perfectionist may i add, everything must level up to the standards i’ve set & i do see to it. i’ve always been drawn to those dark, romantic, but hipster-like sort of rooms. but to transform my current room into one that i find ideal is a tough challenge considering i require room decorations & interior that i do not have. i have, however managed to get it rather close to that sort of image on my 9th attempt

would one find a possibility in liking another with only the power to envision? i know it happens, but never last. but what i think is so perfect about this sort of development is how reality never interposes. it allows you to fall in love ideally, mainly because of how it all seems too good to be true. 

it’s like a dream one fantasizes about, where flaws are not in existence, where problems never arise & where happiness is of absolute permanence. this affair is similar to a getaway….& it’s magical